Closet

I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm hating that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight 14-years-old When he first found out That the pain inside of his brain wasn't the same as everybody else's around Cause he was always really into the girls in his grade But now he was catching feelings for the boy with the fade And it made him insane And it drove him to a point in his pain Where he was condemned to live his existence in vain (Vayne) So he became obsessed And like a coke getting squished Proving to people that he was straight, was making him so depressed (soda pressed) Cause he was always the kid That everybody else was wishing they was with And it made him sick To his stomach that he fell for a guy He didn't know he was bi It didn't matter, his whole life was lie So now all of his focus went to proving to people That he loved women and only women and that being gay would be evil Pretending that he loved anything other than guys He was trynna survive Cause he hated the habit Everything he ever feared, he would claim was a faggot But the more that he steered From the path of the queer His heart, he wanted to stab it The homophobia would curse through his body At his school, in his verse or the lobby Made it his hobby not to be gay Then everything that he hates he became Picked up the bullets of blame, and loaded his gun Then he steadied for aim, pointed at somebody's son The second of his mums He was just hoping that life was a game And he could just rez and be changed What a shame His own life, he was trying to claim Daang I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm hating that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm hating that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I'll be staying in my closet On the sixteenth anniversary of his birth he Cried alone in his room begging god for some mercy Cause he didn't feel worthy Of the life that he led Or the friends that he had So he unmade his bed And wrapped his sheet around his neck He was making a noose Something to hang himself by Anything he could use He just needed to die He tied it up to a hook In the roof And he looked At the life that he lived And he cried like a kid He just needed to go Octobox of his life, Witching Hour, Red-Zone Then the sheet to the hook, he attached As he stood on his chair, he just laughed Looked back at the plaque on his drawer Looked forward to the door And imagined his corps on the floor And the horror of his mum as she talked to the lord He took a deep breath as he glanced at the figure Staring at him from the middle of the mirror Clarity came now, finally he sees clearer Then one last tear dribbled right from his eye As he looked to the sky With a smile that was wry And the note that he wrote would just lie On the left of his desk and declared whereby He was happy to die Then he kicked out the chair and he whispered goodbye Fly high little guy And with this got your wish cause you are no longer bi I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm hating that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm hating that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I'll be staying in my closet This song isn't a story just about some guy This is the tale and the hardship of my life And everyday, I am thankful that I did not die So if you're brain is the same and confused Don't be afraid, you got your mate, you will prove That the person you are, is so perfect in truth Cause identity isn't something you should be struggling through You just gotta love yourself the same way that I do Since I I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm loving that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm loving that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm loving that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I discovered I was bi as shit And I'm loving that I feel like this All this pain that's in my brain I'm sick So tonight I'll be coming out my closet