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Young boy, scared of being a disappointment He tried and tried but in his heart he couldn’t love a woman Little brother keep your mouth closed don’t you say nothing From elementary kept his secret cause f*ck it I loved him Where I was coming up, they beat yo a** if you gay Got in trouble a few times, I would fight for his name Dear momma I’m so sorry, wish I said something sooner I was too young to understand why turtles hide in sewers Cause see like mutants, people treated gay like it was death So only now I understand why you kept it to self Same time like you so f*cking selfish you left And I needed you my selfishness was asking for help So if I could say one thing to you, hear me you won’t AIDS don’t come to play, Thomas answer your phone Your lil brother is calling tryna save you I know That you’re too busy living life to see death was calling too Part of me ended, with the period that ended you I never told you were beautiful living in truth That night you left your dorm was a fatal one Wish I could’ve told you don’t The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be So I’ll keep my light, cause you are the sun that’s inside of me I wish I could save you I wish I could save you Look at what you’re doing quit abusing yourself It’s foolish, to do this, you’re beauty in wealth I knew from the hue of your mood, you needed my help Cause I too, have had views of new me after death And I can’t sit and tell you it’ll be better with time Cause if I do and I’m lying, after time you’ll rewind to this moment and I be reason why Suicide is your ride to the afterlife So this I have to write F*ck it I have to try The manure you endure got you filling diaper pails with regret You taste fear in his sweat, as it drips from his neck On your chest and a splash hit your lips As he steals your first kiss from your lips bloom a broken flower Your power bleeds down your legs as you beg him to stop But he won’t, I hope you don’t do it The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be So I’ll keep my light, cause you are the sun that’s inside of me I wish I could save you I wish I could save you I’ve been through hell, you don’t know how I f*cking feel I see my sons and wonder if I was an ugly kid How could my daddy look at me and not fall in dad How could a son that bears his name not make you dad Did you not kiss my lips, or my cheeks, or my hands or my feet Or hair, did you stare in my eyes and see nothing You’s a bitch I hope you get what you got coming I’ve been a star since she birth I must’ve been blinding Cause you couldn’t see, that your son was shining Your son was trying, to be something you would care about Now it’s f*ck you ni**a Look me in my eye and see a lion’s heart I did without you ni**a, you’re the one I’m crying for Cause you missed your shot, now your bullet has become a killer You missed your shot not your bullet is aiming at you ni**a Don’t flinch The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be So I’ll keep my light, cause you are the sun that’s inside of me I wish I could save you I wish I could save you