Vibe

It's just different I'm a vibe cause I stayed alive So true You look in my eyes and you see a drive So strong When you would've contemplated suicide Facts So did I Barz Banga When it rain, I rejoice, I ain't have a choice in the matter B Before celebrities added me, I was in the academy, living something that's sad to see Come back, let's go to Brooklyn, before the kids was tooken She's smoking what they cooking Can't blame her, she a victim, I blame her Like, Ma, why the hell did you stay with him? In fact, Uncle Leon, he coming through strapped Like what you did to my sister, giving every bruise back I was cheering from the sidelines But she walked back to him on a fine line I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe Long Island living, got a big yard But that don't mean shit because I miss my moms Miss them Brooklyn nights on the fire escape Marvin Gaye singing, daddy found a vein This your foster mother, this is what's his name First day there, felt something strange Really couldn't put my finger on it Much different from Brooklyn so I didn't linger on it First night, playing video games in sleep clothes He put his hand on my dick and I froze Ten years old, I'm like a tadpole This asshole making me think of something I chose Who the f*ck I'm gonna tell Who the f*ck gonna believe me, I duck in my shell In school, excel, I don't wanna go home Knife to my wrist, the blood cover the chrome Thoughts cover the dome, they begging me to talk All I know is my mommy is somewhere in New York I hop on the L-I-R-R to find Not thinking that I left my little brother behind I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe You ain't give him a chance and you took his life Took my future grands and you took his wife Took any chance for him to fight back Last thing he said is I'll be right back You know what it's like to get a death call She told you such lies and you believed it all Followed to the letter, didn't once think That you could destroy a family in one blink My baby boy was my best friend Everyday with him has been a blessing And what you did won't make him less than I pray that someday you'll learn a lesson You took away something so great And your life ruined at such a young age What a way to make the front page Now my whole life changed over dumb rage All I can do is pray I got nothing left to say There ain't enough time that they can give you For what you have to live through, just know I forgive you I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe I guess I'm just a vibe