keeping up

Oh I had these dreams again, had these schemes again I am so dry i've been hanging out Tell me all about how i can make it out Just trust in myself? I'm blind to find a way Find me out; smoke me out and lay here with me Forgetting to escape; just trying to find a reason These cold chicago winters don't mean anything to me I'm trying to find a way that i can let this go I'm looking out my window with a sense of clarity Breathing out the stale air free and wild not lonely and afraid If i could have the guts to pick it up to the place i wanna be It would make some sense to me And I try with everything i am to keep my life in time with my lifetime And I'd like to think that i am fine but i wont lie who's happy all the time? i don't know why