An Acoustic Cry for Help

I'm scared I use my mental health as an excuse for All of my past mistakes and constant failures And I lie to my therapist about how I want to jump of a bridge So he won't feel compelled to call the cops But I don't want to lose myself to my own crumbling mental health So I just want to be alone but I can't let that bullshit grow So I could be a recluse, could be of no use and I know Everything will be alright I could lose my damn mind, could stay in and cry but I know Everything will be alright I should go on some diet plan Some strict form kind of regiment Or maybe I should start over in another state, a thousand miles away I could be like Chris McCandless, "Into the Wild" with no experience Live my life just off the grid or dying from my ignorance But I've been saying all my life that none of it was worth a try So I just stay in bed all day but I don't want to be that way So I could be a recluse, could be of no use and I know Everything will be alright I could lose my damn mind, could stay in and cry but I know Everything will be alright I have a constant fear that none of it will ever work out I feel the weight beneath my feet dragging my down, down, down I want to be more, so much more than this I want to lift myself up and confront this shit So I could be a recluse, could be of no use and I know Everything will be alright I could lose my damn mind, could stay in and cry but I know Everything will be alright Everything will be alright