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I can't be the way you want me I can't hear over my heartbeat Words I never said they haunt me All these feelings are exhausting Its ok manipulate my empathy Did you forget all the words that you had said to me Now I'm not sure of the person that I wanna be How can someone be so cold and still so heavenly I need you to tell me that you're not a liar I don't wanna start falling but I cant get higher Maybe as I fall ill finally start understanding Why I place the blame on myself instead of reprimanding You For all the shit that you put me through Changing with the seasons like you said that you wouldn't do Say you didn't mean it now my feelings are far and few Say I couldn't see it but I guess that I always knew I can't be the way you want me I can't hear over my heartbeat Words I never said they haunt me All these feelings are exhausting Its ok just right now I don't feel much at all And ill always be a shoulder for you if you call But I cant ignore my own potential Staring at the ceiling Still clinging to what's sentimental That feeling will ever prevent me From being something that I wanna be I know she doesn't But there are still some that believe in me After all the pain you put me through Sadly I still believe in you I can't be the way you want me I can't hear over my heartbeat Words I never said they haunt me All these feelings are exhausting