I Wanna Trust (Malefic)

I had a dream about her last night Couldn't turn the pain aside Ain't it crazy how it feels Yeah, I'm digging up my past now I had some so-called friends back in time Started singing every night Suddenly they all just act like I'm the joke figure My home started with a few songs They told me that I'm wasting all my life It felt like they made fun of what I tried So I said I'll go to every place my heart flows People say that I am tripping But I just wish we could love But you can't really define Which people really love you or not How can they clap on my shoulder Say, Congress, give me likes Back then, no one replied to me Remember when I played live I got home with well-prings at night Strangers jumped up by the stream I had my whole life I'm sorry that it's hard for me to trust sometimes Looking back after all this time Sometimes I still judge on my mind Cause experience has been hard But I broke through every brick wall Trying to wish everyone the best When you get hurt, it's like a test Yeah, I've been treated like I'm just a joke figure My home started with a few songs They told me that I'm wasting all my life It felt like they made fun of what I tried So I said I'll go to every place my heart flows People say that I am tripping But I just wish we could love But you can't really define Which people really love you or not How can they clap on my shoulder Say, Congress, give me likes Back then, no one replied to me Remember when I played live I got home with well-prings at night Strangers jumped up by the stream I had my whole life I'm sorry that it's hard for me to trust sometimes I wanna trust I wanna trust I'm so afraid of being alone I wanna trust With all that I got No, I don't wanna fight this war I don't wanna fight this war