olfactory apparition

Ghost of a ghost, a smell of someone before I knew you before I knew you, a note slid under a door Half a battle, now how a conversation can cast a shadow And the words become a whisper as we gallop past the gallows Loved ones losing loved ones and I love them more than this love itself Worried that what it takes only leaves when it deems there's nothings left Can't fathom the cost and what it takes and how it breaks apart And what it leaves and who was left and how it turns these days to dark What makes a mark upon a man, how long until they fade and blend Many more may misconstrue and claim their traumas made them men Like pain were a prerequisite, the more or less, the less of it The moral lessons lessen as what's left becomes more hesitant Promise I make no promises, I did before and broke them too Just hold the ones who molded you most close to you and don't assume That this is how it always is, it's far from what it's always been And what it was is what it was and what it will be all depends And truth seems like a lie to those who's mostly unfamiliar If you let it it can eat at you until it's forced to kill ya Waging wars on what's inside of you, we wear it on the outer too The seconds pass in centuries and feel more like the hours do Make molehills and the mountains move if doing so allowed for you To see what's on the other side of all you're forced to power through I'm only who I was and who I've been, hope you remember me Cascading through these callouses, descend into the entropy What's meant for wasn't meant to be, but yet and still the settings real Words we never thought we'd need for feelings that we'd never feel The why, the when the where of it, the weight we're forced to carry it Assuming we can hold it all's beyond the height of arrogance This didn't have to be like this, but always had to be this way The what I want replaced with all the words I know I need to say This didn't have to be like this, but always had to be this way The what I want replaced with all the words I know I need to say Please keep them close to you Like we're supposed to do And all I have to offer is a fraction of what's owed to you This didn't have to be like this, but always had to be this way The what I want replaced with all the words I know I need to say