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Sick of feeling sorry for myself Cause I'm in a hurry I got my health, yeah Keep it to myself perks of stealth No need to worry anyone else F*ck understanding I need change Gave my 2 cents I forgot my wage Now my wallets smoking that's not sage But the ripples got me waiting for another wave Another day To ride away Until may And the summer comes up for another stage Tryna build the guts for another play Arrange these words so I get to say The love for you that I must convey Before life takes over Twiddling thumbs till we're closer Can't fix the chapter on this sofa Mind on mars in this rover This just a dream til it's sposed to Come to fruition when I know her Intentions and mine Intertwined There's no closing the blinds till I'm seeing the signs In my notebook I been writing all the time I been so shook Missing you like you're mine Struggling through it all There's no catch for you I fall In this batch of feels I call Who knew these walls could be too tall Struggling through it all There's no catch for you I fall In this batch of feels I call Been attacked through crumbled walls Add a beat to the mix to rescue my mental Everything feels less consequential So much up top I should be charging rental But writing fines would be the waste of a pencil Scratch erased just get through the day You rubbed me wrong but it's okay The stage isn't permanent I'm just an ornament Conclusion been forming and I've just been torturing ifs and whats Why can't I sit for days and grow like stocks Glass is broken I won't own rocks Say I'm above it only when shit knocks Only when this shit stops then I'll find peace A girl on the mind is its own disease The heat of a heart can only freeze I'm sick of this shit so I'm done with pleas Too many timelines in my time Just cause it rhymes fine Don't mean it might lie In the open like divine I might grind mine down to a binds rind So I'm stopping it, wait, look Yeah I'm clocking it No I'm stopping it uh