StandStill

I need a rest didn't know how long I was beaming I've been obsessed didn't know how much teething I miss Mac even though I never got to meet him I just needed someone else to confront all my demons The coils inside this bark been straying The coils missing the spark it needs greying The toils within the dark in need of praying The soil bares the mark it needs laying It needs laying Trapped in the prison of mind Never sought solace cause it's the hardest to find I'm just deep inside my mine Looking for treasure, no matter how hard I try I get suffocated by the darkness Inebriated by the vastness I'm right here where I am In the wind I still stand I feel a weight inside my soul Feel it slowly taking a toll I don't know how long I'll last I've shattered this hourglass I don't know how long I'll last I've shattered this hourglass It's crazy that something specific can elate me, upgrade me Make me feel there's nothing more amazing But lately life's been subverted I hate me The very same thing gone aggravate me, berate me Feel the insignificance of dithering, I stay quivering, shit's so belittling With these words I have can paint a mural But as I suffocate realise it's just neural Wish I could hit clear all To all times past, I call five fast Can I live in this world without nothing to prosper I look through the events and see you on that roster I should build a cage around my heart to see the cost of Loneliness, Unholiness Hunched and defeated like my posture Forgot happiness this just an imposter Have I lost you Have I lost you I'm right here where I am In the wind I still stand I feel a weight inside my soul Feel it slowly taking a toll I don't know how long I'll last I've shattered this hourglass I don't know how long I'll last I've shattered this hourglass