Mind Playin' Tricks On Me

100 Niggas that I know and only six friends I started out with many more but had to count again And I guess it's probably cause we had some differences And from the jump I knew that we was on some different shit But through the years know my eyes losing on they sight But the vision that I got has got me seeing right Because I'm telling you I seen so many eyes looking (They looking at me) Man I'm telling you I seen so many smiles crooked (Crooked) Plotting on your boy because they wanna try me And the ones that I once knew got to get from round me And I had to find myself a couple friends A couple niggas that I knew before this shit began And I know my boys won't ever steal (Right) Because we only know language and that's keep it real I met a buster that I once knew Ain't seen him in awhile so you know played it cool But I guess that was the wrong move (Wrong move) A face that I used to trust turned crooked too (Crooked) And I quickly jerked my hand away Ironic the funny niggas be the ones to change Stayed ready I ain't think he be the wrong homie I thought my mind was playing tricks on me I thought my mind was playing tricks on me I thought my mind was playing tricks on me Alone outside I'm sitting on a bench Next thing you know an older woman comes and sits And she strikes up a chat with me (Huh?) And she ask me why I never look the slightest happy And she started giving me advice (Oh yea?) I tried to plan her out because you know a nigga not the type But I guess I must have trusted her a little bit Cause once I got started there was no end of it And I started talking off the mind I talked so damn much I went and lost the track of time And I remembered it was getting late So I hopped my ass up and told her see you round the way And so we finished on that last note I ain't the type to get into it so I thanked her for the time we spoke And after that we met a couple times (Couple times) Every day the same park, same bench, and the same time I'm feeling glad to share with someone else Until somebody tapped me and said I'm talking to my fucking self Realizing in a minute I was kidding me Believing that I had an equal my mind was tricking me Tricking me Tricking me I thought my mind was playing tricks on me I thought my mind was playing tricks on me I'm in my cell counting tallies on the wall It been a couple years since I had my last call I been alone in this wicked place Could see the pain in my eyes but never will I show it in my face My cellmate he came in about the same time We kind of similar but we don't got the same mind He like to talk alot but I'm the opposite I like to speak soft but carry bigger sticks We kind of big on that yard the whole block heard us Connections come from everywhere we make the opps nervous My celly fiending for the power I see his greed Some niggas say they got a problem wanna see em bleed So he tryna rally up some guys A little surprised cause only few had wanna take his side I'm not his boy so I didn't really move either I been had seen it for myself he ain't a strong leader Cause you could say a whole lot but does it reach My daddy taught me judge a man beyond the speech So he took the few he got and he went to war They beat his ass to a pulp and left him on the floor His mind played tricks on him just because his neck He had the attention but not enough respect But not enough respect But not enough respect But not enough respect I'm scared of sleeping every night because of bad dreams When I'm awake is reality really what it seems My room feels like a prison And when I wanna talk no one's there to listen But every now and then I hear a voice that ain't my own But when I look nobody's there and I'm all alone There's a woman next door but it can't be I think a woman's in my wall that I can't see Oh lord have mercy how did we get here Got confusion on my mind I can't think clear Cuz I started talking to her (And she started talking back) I learned a little but it felt like I always knew her She sounds younger, but never hard to conversate I'm more mature, but not to where she can't relate I got my ears to the walls, I look insane Why am I reaching for this voice, I can't explain I stood up had enough and put my fist through it And I kept swinging and swinging till' I could slip through it Can't believe what I saw it took my breath A young lady chained up and close to death I would have seen her sooner if we had a little trust We thought our minds were playing tricks on us