No Love No Trust

I love you, Equinox I ain't tryna love for real, that shit gon' get me hurt I ain't tryna trust for real, that shit gon' get me killed Won't get the satisfaction of seeing me put in a hearse It's like I'm numb to all this shit, then I'm back in my feels Burn the love notes, they get too close and they become a curse My heart too cold to chase these hoes, so I keep chasing mills It seem like faded memories just turned into a verse My mind too woke, I won't be broke, so I just count the bills You see a graphic through my raps I guess I'm truly skilled They wash the pain up on my system help me persevere Experience make character, so I been soldier built Can't hurt forever, so it's time for me to face my fears I've seen the highs, I've felt the lows, but still I never quit Umbrella for bad weather, traded all my pain for tears I gave my blood, sweat, and tears and grinded bit by bit Struggles paid off, but still my trauma never disappeared Dodging demons in the dark, they tryna pull me near Cuban links shining brighter than a chandelier I've been searching for your love, intentions so unclear Loyal to my solitude, cause you gone leave me still Fucked up my head because the path you took seemed so sincere You said forever, but forever must've disappeared I got a lot, but still your heart my biggest souvenir Been stacking paper, but your absence is my biggest fear I did you wrong throughout my past, I'm sorry I admit Talked in your ear, but then my actions wasn't showing shit Showed me true love, but I was dumb, I didn't notice it You held it down and held me close when I'm most needed it I had a diamond all along, but treated it like bricks You was the realest, but I got lost in the counterfeit Gave me a shot, but in my ignorance I blew that shit Burst out in tears, you knew the perfect way to handle it Right then and there I should've said, it's time to lock it in Can't stand our distance, and I can't believe it's bout a bitch Heart like fire with you gone, can't seem to get it lit Cut off these hoes and treat you right, this time I promise it Damn.......