Back Then (prod. by Cherno)

Ugh sometimes I wish I was a cloud just floating along Going where ever the breeze takes me That's my style I'm just not into putting effort into stuff The only reason I became a ninja was so that I could do whatever I wanted It was 1996 on the day of march 3rd When this pisces was born into this cruel world But he never knew how dark this life truly was Until the day he seen shit that made him grow up He came from a family that lives through the struggle Trying to get a few bucks stumbling through the rubble Thankfully we always had a roof over our head My parents did the best to make sure I sleep okay in a bed And even though they split split apart through a divorce It never really bothered me to see them change course Cus if two people ain't happy then that's okay To say it was a good run but now we must part ways All I ever wanted for them was to see them happy And yes that's the truth even though if it's sappy But it was the relationships they chose to have after Weren't the best but at least I got two more brothers Growing up I was bboy into skating Video games comic books were my main things D and d games I f*ck with that nerd culture Cartoons and anime I would scope like a vulture Martial arts mixed with other crucial arts I would approach it all as one straight from the start Slowly lead me into music from the passion in my heart Learned turntablism and producing hit the dart Most of my family are strangers or dangers They either are never are around or f*ck you over Many of many have already been cut off You think I give a damn ooh boy that's tough luck I learned to protect the ones who protect me Blood ain't shit those who look after you are family Actions speak louder than words I must agree My morals and my code just won't let shit be I was fairly intelligent but never would apply myself I would get lost in a song and write what I felt I was about 9 years old when I was hospitalized Living close to death so young will make you realize So I focused on my soul and my passions Reaching for a distant world I may never be grasping But still, yet still no matter the hobbie I kept rapping This music thing I felt was a warm felt entrapment Went through many of friends and even changed schools Sunnyvale santa clara san jose are the places that I grew And the fact I know nothing is all that I knew So I learn all these things that will help me stay true Even if some think that the shit I do makes me a fool Cus I just tried to be me f*ck being cool Cus the people in my life told me not to worry They said you're fine the way you are so no need to scurry I hold them close to my heart and try and make em proud I always do what I can to try and cheer em up when they're down I use to draw I use to write books I use to think like a movie till it had me shook I was born with a lot of fears I had to overcome But I kept it to myself and they would overlook I would just smile and act like I was having fun But that self suppression robbed me like a crook