Introvert

Huh yeah I know I just I haven't been feeling myself lately ya know Just don't really feel like being social Huh the introverted part of me is taking over I just wanna be left alone right now I got these legends to tell Lately I been studying many different philosophies Learning about science religion and many histories Trapped up in my house trying to find the silence mostly Learning to quiet my mind and finally find some peace for me I'm just feeling that introverted part take over me Cus I'm tired of being angry it's burning me to third degree My name is Bboy Ninja you ain't probably never heard of me Sometimes I lose my confidence as if it's overseas I'm mastering depression and all my anxieties When people start testing me I refer to art of peace Keep your negative energy all away from me please Cus when I can't contain myself I just turn into a beast His name is Bloodfang and he'll rip you with his teeth I hope you never have to meet him with a greet My name is Bboy Ninja now ill bet that you heard of me Sometimes I gain my confidence rooting like a tree As I grow older I prefer to hide inside my house Along with all my favorite things and my pretty spouse I don't mind just kicking back watching movies Like a black mirror episode the world is so spooky I just want some comics video games and anime When I'm not trying to create a star out of clay My mind up and runs when it said would stay Try to speak this out but I can't convey I get lost like jack but find my way like john Who the f*ck would play anyone of my songs Look in the mirror like what I'm doing wrong They won't listen to you so go and hit that bong Okay I'll just keep to myself I'm doing fine on my own I just stare at these walls feeling trapped and alone I isolate myself till I get call on the phone They like it's been too long you know I miss you bro Slaying these demons I'm the number one hashirama All in my head in my room I don't the want the drama I'm chasing that bread so I got stability with my honor If any rapper f*ck with me I kill him and leave em dishonored Nah f*ck it they don't wanna hear yo bro Those tracks ain't cool and yo flow ain't cold Staring at the mirror like why you tell me fo Maybe you're right I just don't know But I like the things I do and the way that I grow So perpetual infinite motion growth They might be holding the cards but I'm playing tic tac toe I play you a fool's mate then I checkmate bro All I know is my peace is with my girl late at night Telling her we'll make it we gon' be alright When she kisses my neck the noise silences right My sanctuary is where I recharge my light So no don't talk to me like I'm on a retreat I'm tuning the world out I'm focused on the beat What is that next line my mind too loud it can't think This art is my therapy till my head up and shrink Self therapy for the rest of the trauma too deep Most too afraid but I'm afraid because I leaped I just hope I get this shit out praying to the muse Why can't you mix this bitch I talk that self abuse Then I say f*ck it and watch reruns in my bed All this self conscious talk is getting to my head I use to like going out but now I don't wanna see friends If I absorb too much bad energy then I'm dead I talk to these four walls I hope they don't say what I said People too fake so move careful how you tread Introvert takeover the extrovert I reconvert reassert what is my worth You wanna go out nah I'm good at home I'm chilling right here a king on his throne I got peace and quiet that's all I want That's the shit I flex cus It's what I got That's that peace of mind for all of my thoughts Through patience and silence how I untie these knots But I'm feeling low energy so please take me home This introvert can socialize after he's been left alone