Unfocused (Chaos)

In isolation i always excel as an artist But lately this loneliness has hit me the hardest Between life falling apart and then the pandemic This stress is so contagious that its got my raps sick Im about ready to do some stick ups for this shit I struggle like a starving artist just to make a hit Trying to manifest my music on to my friends playlists Just a like or share but they never wanna play this Relationship its in the trash Direkt quit on my ass Motivation almost out of gas Friends left in the past Time to duck and dash gotta get it fast Get to the task and a new job at that Im trying get it back and make it stack Brahh brahh brahh ima shoot these raps I feel like quitting and just giving this up Im so fucking tired and had enough Suicide is starting to seem good enough Cus i just feel like i aint fucking good enough Im gonna crash my car into the awards show Make em buy my music and eat my flow Shove that shit down their fucking throats And when i take that bow ill be named the goat Draw inspiration from eminem Joyner lucas please bless my pen Let eyedea take possession Get instructions from big l then Kill em first and forgive later When it comes to hiphop yo im a savior On some rap shit im the grave digger Cus im killing em all even if they bigger Pull this trigger and bust shots at the enemy Im cuttin out all the snakes playing pretend to be You aint no friend to me drown you in the sea Waterbend the flow like im the avatar named bruce lee Im discharging exponential energy Unlimited potential is whats rising in me But will i fucking survive this pain i feel Being dragged down to fiery pits of hell Im sick of all these new cats yeah im that new cat F*ck all this mumble crap ill show you how to rap Its about passion pain peace struggles and war Show me what the f*ck you been through and more What makes your heart beat the beat at your core I just wish someone would buy my music from the store Even if im underground theyll f*ck with my sound Cus if they dont ill feed em to the dog pound I said f*ck the cream just give me the dream Let the crowd scream as i make a scene Drop these bodies quick im aiming at cops Kill a corrupt bitch no i wont stop Till we get this freedom till we get this justice Till i save music i aint gon miss Till my fucking life aint got me mad Till then im going dark and acting bad