Riposte

First off, f*ck your voice and the stance you claim, Southside, where I rise, but you taint My game You claim to show support, yet, you squash my dreams, steady pushing yo' agenda for Yo' schemes I see the truth through true blood and forced lies, false pride, nothing but them jaded Eyes Ain't I ya son, ya grandson, ya lovin' brotha? A good friend, something like a lil brotha Ain't I ya homie, the one you know from back then? Ain't I a close friend I thought so, man You break my back like chiroprac, talkin' out the side of your neck? Man – I might snap I overreact? Run this back, run that back – wait, I overreact You steady talkin' shit, on the phone, up in ya home, tellin' so-and-so how I ain't in my Zone This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living Dealin' with bullshit, dealin' with – lots of alone time, lots on my own mind People I don't speak or hear from, my friends, siblings, the rest of 'dem Don't got many I trust, don't got many I love, if you in my circle, you know what's up But still, I feel pain and joy, from days of being a boy, these days? Destroyed All the noise? I vibe in and zone out. That's the background, eyes on the battleground Keep my focus, tears don't sneak by, I thought that big fellas do not cry Shit, that's a lie – shed behind doors, concealing river of tears since I was four That's how it go when all emotion run high, heart on my sleeve, I walk in to the night This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living Separate personas like the stoners, grinding up sticky situations like the loaners Sharks in the water seek the blood, take off the shades, mic down, back up in the mud Back to the scrub with the basics, one who be surrounded by the peeps, with the soul Chasin' Can't recall the last time I felt amazing, can't recall the last time the fire was blazing Been going through the motions for forever, y'all can't really see it cause I hide it really Clever Been feeling all the pressure, that I can't rise above expectations, find the motivation The fuel to the body of machines, spirit less serene with lack of caffeine At night, I never rest, hearing all the talkin' from the world, but I never fail to stress This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living This is my response to the criticism, how I walk it, how I talk it, how I'm living Money's funny, yet my mind is funnier, don't you wonder 'bout these constant slumbers If I spoke the truth, would you love me still? Or would you wanna kill Red pill, blue pill, take your choice, did I leave no room for the ploys You stay with noise about my negative, but won't bring joy for my positive Bringing joy and pain with no care, ain't we 'posed to be close around here That's that bullshit, the one that drove me, to a, therapist, made me less venomous I feel lucky making it this far, standing for my life so far Ups and downs, lefts and rights, I just wanna be alone tonight