Spores

It's tough to swallow silence Smothered under the mileage Been battling the time and unraveling the seams of my own demise And this cluster f*ck of mindsets Not sure what aligns with my goals and all I wish Weren't just sinking into all the soil So for now I'll toil and wait until I boil over I should've been digging up the seeds before they root Now nothing ever seems to fill your shoes Don't want to get used to this I've got bitterness and dreams and worn out tools Decisions always seem like spores until they bloom Forgetting you is like forgetting how to live I'm fucking submerged in all of this doubt that was unearthed I used to be calm, cool, and reserved But now I'm just swooning in the shade of you And I'm getting so frantic and speaking so candid My vision's so slanted and I'm feeling stranded All that I dread will multiply and spread Cultivate my head and erode in your stead I should've been digging up the seeds before they root Now nothing ever seems to fill your shoes Don't want to get used to this I've got bitterness and dreams and worn out tools Decisions always seem like spores until they bloom Forgetting you is like forgetting how to live I'm picking my brain to find my poise I'm sick of just dwelling on this choice I'm sifting through all these words and noise I'm tired of yelling with no voice I should've been digging up the seeds before they root Now nothing ever seems to fill your shoes Don't want to get used to this I've got bitterness and dreams and worn out tools Decisions always seem like spores until they bloom Forgetting you is like forgetting how to live Can someone tell me how to live