The Death Instinct

You are my brothers and I bear the burden for you And every day I lift a Sisyphus stone For prosperity but not for conviction Hoping for the future without pain And walking the line Between death and pride There is still a little hope and prayers While you are alive you'll fight Even if you're going down Listen to your heart Blind leading blind It's death instinct And everyone thinks that will lead to light But we plunge into darkness and eternal gunfight And it is heavier than me, heavier than my love But I'm stronger than you think I want to see what will bring me a new day And walking the line Between death and pride There is still a little hope and prayers While you are alive you'll fight Even if you're going down Listen to your heart This is our death instinct What hurts the most? Your pity scares me more than a gun aimed at me I would give my life for a family Save me from pain From the dirty hands of the priest Help me forget But all this is heavier than my love And madness flows through my veins The only rage saves from pain Let me die Or share with me this death instinct But when I hear their voices and laughter I understand that all is not lost And I'm still here I promised to stay