A Tap I Can't Turn Off

There is an overwhelming sense of doubt That's spent a lifetime occupying my mind The things that I've done to block it out Have corroded the rest of what's left over time A fading distant sound is calling to me But I can't block it out now I've lost the page and I've lost the count And now I am struggling to be How do you believe in me now? After all the times that I have let you down How do you believe in me now? It's not fair and it's scary to think of my life Without you around My avoidance has been habit forming I've done my best to tell a different story It's built and bred and bled in my thoughts Now it's like a tap I can't turn off I follow footsteps that are winding path Of the things I know I lack I found the thread and I traced it back But I struggle to be the person You still seem to see How do you believe in me now? After all the times that I have let you down How do you believe in me now? It's not fair and it's scary to think of my life Without you around If there wasn't evidence I wouldn't believe where I have been But I still lack confidence And sometimes I feel like shit"