I Will Leave You with This

I am lost, I am flawed, yes at my best I'm not afraid to accept the things that I've fucked up But when I'm gone you can burry me with things That I made for my friends with love I'll leave you with this What got lost in the midst of the deafening sadness Is that I will leave behind Records that document our lives I'll leave you with this Piece of myself after years where I hadn't Felt like I could ask for help The hope and pain inside memorialized I was hospitalized and I almost gave up So if you think that you can take this from me now You'll need the barrel of a gun Words over chords Reflect the things our hearts endure I'll leave you with this What got lost in the midst of the deafening sadness Is that I will leave behind Records that document our lives I'll leave you with this Piece of myself after years where I hadn't Felt like I could ask for help There are notes with delay That crystallize our darkest days The tape is spinning, the candles lit You won't have to miss me because I'm going to live I am preparing for the journey instead By learning what I can from all the pieces of wreckage There is a light that's flickering up ahead My face reflects all the things that I wish I had said But this is all I know Saying this out loud makes me feel less alone