Treadless

I'm treadless and spinning I just don't know where I should begin What started out as a terrible lie Grew and grew and multiplied I'm not even sure who's behind this disguise But it's someone I don't recognize Help me find myself I've spent so long wishing that I was someone else I've wanted to get better everyday since I was a kid It's still so sad, isn't it? That I never did There was no stillness after the wake The waves are crashing more today I'm drifting further, I'm farther away What's left is slowly eroding with each crest as it breaks Help me find myself I've spent so long wishing that I was someone else I've wanted to get better everyday since I was a kid It's still so sad, isn't it? That I never did I never told my Dad that I wished I was dead Just one of those talks that we never had So I just laid awake, haunted, afraid Praying for help that never came Pick me up, pull me in I don't know what I have but what's left I will give