Gauze

I wrote you a letter I hope you never read Your picture near my heart so you're last thing I will see I replay your voice mail it gets better ever time The sound of your sonnet ease my trouble mind (Help me, Help me) No, I don't want you to move on But go if what we had is long gone I understand the circumstance the cards left in your hand Remember me in everything. I'll be your Guardian I hope it's all for nothing and the dark clouds never come When I battle with my demons from the things that I have done And if I relapse back to habits I quit Then sober me up and keep it all from my lips (Help me, Help me) So Please stay. I promise to get better Please stay. I'm just under the weather I don't blame you for leaving, but hope that you don't I hope by this evening you pick up the phone No, I don't want you to move on but go if what we had is long gone I understand the circumstance the cards left in your hand Remember me in everything. I'll be your Guardian I don't think you can comprehend the struggle deep within All the wars fought and lost deep in the scars on my skin There's no hiding from the abomination I've created in my head So forgive me if sometimes I slip and scream "I wish I was dead" but don't worry. I'll keep fighting this temptation But I'm addicted to the sensation of emancipation from the living Like I'm cast, in a vast ocean of regret and decisions Like an unlit path in a labyrinth of self hate and affliction But this nonfiction story doesn't have to end like this Don't you misconstrued my vulnerability for weakness I know I can overcome this darkness Harnesses the hate in my heart that started it Take all the good left in me and impart it so maybe you can catch it early and stop it I promise I pinky promise I'll die of natural causes