Drugs and Love

I've got all these hair products to keep my flow Loads of skin cream to make me glow Climbed up all these mountains to get my body fit Kicked off all my vices and bad habits Everywhere I go I've got a home And I've got way too many friends to every feel alone Everything I want comes as easy as it goes But I still need drugs and her love to get me up the rope Is it bad to be dependent Am I better of free What if she leaves What if my anxiety gets too big to breath Even worse what if she needs me I'm dependent on drugs and her love Black coffee ocean on me not to sleep I'm stockpilin artificial energy I can't help myself from pickin at these garden weeds When I'm not rippin im still pullin from a bottle or three It's not a problem just some college tendencies You say you'll get your shit together when you're 23 I've seen better I've seen worse just let me be me Anything it takes to distract from apathy What if she leaves What if my anxiety gets too big to breath Even worse what if she needs me I'm dependent on drugs and her love She makes me not want to leave