How Hard I Try

There is a weight on my spirit There is a red in my eye I'll never be perfect No matter how hard I try I learned from a tough guy That real men they cry Never make everyone happy No matter how hard I try At this point I've written thousands of songs They overflow notebooks Staind red from the ink on my red palms They fill up my phone with everything that I did wrong Maybe I'm just singing my heart out a few all along Some rappers need stages Some poets need psalms I bubble up in your ear time to time Like the bottom of bongs I see your face in the bubbles Distorted and long Can't tell if your screaming But then the bubble is gone There is a weight on my spirit There is a red in my eye I'll never be perfect No matter how hard I try I learned from a tough guy That real men they cry Never make everyone happy No matter how hard I try I'm staring at this portrait again Thinking about time contemplating and wondering Were they right? When these cameras flash so bright Do I lose half my soul that fast with every still picture they snap If so that explains why I'm light Floating above my town looking down Like an eagle With distorted sight There's a tilt to the scope and blood to the lens Nobody wants to hug me out of fear for sharp talons So I just keep looking down Can I be confid-again When my face is glued to the ground? Has been so long now that plants abound Growing out of my chin All of our life we been too fat or thin I swear I'm never drinking again Sound Familiar But when you've nursed that hangover then Your reaching in the cabinet For Gin Again? I guess that next headache is imminent. There is a weight on my spirit There is a red in my eye I'll never be perfect No matter how hard I try I learned from a tough guy That real men they cry Never make everyone happy No matter how hard I try And There is a weight on my spirit And There is a red in my eye I'll never be perfect And I learned from a tough guy Real men cry I'll Never make anyone happy And There is a weight on my spirit There is a red in my eye And I learned from a tough guy Real men cry I'll Never make anyone happy No matter how hard I try Try No matter how hard I try No matter how hard I try