In Your Head

Four or five years since you started off Now you're sleeping in, and you duck the call You can't remember when you wanted this They're on the line, but you dig your heels in and resist The push and pull of the life you chose Stands in silhouette, drawing close It's in your head, and it's all around You start to shake when you hear the sound It's just a fake when you're wide awake Those shaking, shivering steps you take Walk out your back door It's starting to rain You thought it was over But it's still the same We lay like kids on the dock at night Too scared to say the words that'll start or end the fight Keep going over all the thoughts that are in my head Can only half-hear all those bullshit words she said Now they're all the same that you've heard before You're not to blame, but my eyes are sore It's in your head, and it's all around Try not to shake when you hear the sound Your stomach aches, but you're still awake Those foggy memories from the lake Walk out your front door There's a break in the rain Another year older But it's still the same