Array of Light

As I record my growing pains 
I don't wanna be caught eating paint I used to think I only had two states 
Forcibly yellow or a default grey You said 
We don't need money to have a good time Smoking cigarettes you found in an ash tray Don't worry about tomorrow 3am coffee from a saché We'll burn those bridges when we come to it
 We'll sew our stitches with the bass drum hits And I know your filled with an emptiness So are speakers before the baseline kicks Just feel it move through you I used to think I only had two states
 Forcibly yellow or a default grey But I opened my eyes to Signs of life outside the binary A fine array of light I know that ache in your bones 
But in the dirt with the insects we are never alone
Yeah our days consist of
 Avoiding being stepped on
 But all the earth is our home So hey it's okay 
 Welcome to the family A patchwork tuxedo 
 Trapped outside kaleidoscope Cope without ropes around your sounding throat
My weekends used to consist of loosening nooses
But the proof is you're stronger than you think
 Cut through me, a library of flawed parts, a thin cry starts But truly, I carry your heart in my heart A quiet sonnet that posits melancholic suggestion But from it we saw it a symphonic resurrection Leave the children to sleep now
 Listening to Mobo on loud Sound Emitting from a house
 That may never be A home