I Wanna Feel Calm

I try to not let my trauma do the talking But from time to time the t's add up And I can see in your eyes that I can be exhausting And I'm not sure what forgiveness even does But I try and I try day on day on day on day Reaching to a light that's flickering headaches permeate And I try and I try day on day on day on day Seeking stillness in a rippling Retrace all the ways You keep me calm I see visions of violet You keep me calm And it all goes quiet You keep me calm When my brain is abstracted My bones are compacted We can forget all about it I want to cherish every insignificance Lay in the light of your mundane I want to hold onto every impermanence Each an eternity in their own way But as July washes over My heart beats a bosa nova Been overwhelmed for like a year now Feel my defences lower My mind's sleeps on a sofa Dreams of drifting maybe too far I want to love it all the time Bathe in the glory of each moment I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second I wanna feel calm I want to cherish every insignificance