am i allowed to have this

One body wasn't made for this much weight I'm crumbling under pressure There's only so much my poor heart can take Before the point of no return My bones creak with the sadness in my veins Pooling right under my skin Time heals all wounds is what they always say How much time do I have left When happiness creeps it's way into my head The fog will surely blind it Am I allowed to have this Stitching up the holes in my heart Will I come out the other side Bruised or unharmed Am I allowed to have this The light that makes its way to the end What did I do to deserve this The aching need not to pretend I'll claw my way through whatever lies above And the rain that surrounds me My hands grow tired and I will start to shake I can't give myself a break I need to see what else lies around me Leave the dark in the past And I promise I'll be okay