simplicities of god

Feels like I'm walking on eggshells Just to be alive Why do I have to spend my whole life Just trying to survive I never asked to be a monster It just happened that way I never asked to be an angel I just want to be okay I'll never know if I get in to heaven Or if I'm restrained to hell Never thought god would want me But the devil bids farewell I'm drowning, I'm drowning I'm drowning, I'm drowning In all my mortal blood I'm dragging, I'm dragging I'm dragging, I'm dragging My feet through the mud Why'd I think I could play god In a world that's not my own I am not all consuming I surrender all control Scars reveal themselves on my skin Holes I could never fill As an always there reminder That I cannot be killed I am somewhat of a god And somewhat of a man I'll never be a god And i'll never understand I'm drowning, I'm drowning I'm drowning, I'm drowning In all my mortal blood I'm dragging, I'm dragging I'm dragging I'm dragging My feet through the mud The simplicities of god Are just out of reach I am somewhat of a man I cannot be free