unfinished business

Silence wraps my consciousness As I slip through all the cracks Of the concrete floor my mind has built But I continue to fall back On all my habits, all my ways I cry on and off for days Months creep past as I silently pray To give my old self away I set myself up for failure I wish I knew how to stop Break these habits, break these ways It's a cycle that's nonstop I'm destined to come around again And maybe feel once more My pride and ego take the hits And I fall back on the floor One step forward, two steps back Is what I always say Every time I start to think I'm better The colors start to fade Stumbling through the vast abyss Hoping to find someone To help me back to where I came To give me back the sun The warmth on my face, the wind in my hair I miss it all the same I only hope it all returns again And no one is to blame The silence creeps through my ears As I beg for forgiveness But it pulls me back into the cycle Of all unfinished business