Protection Spells

I was following a feeling I always had so much to prove Never stopped to look around me Until I had a lot to lose I was waiting for the summer I was been hiding in plain sight ` If I have a heart of darkness Can't I find a little light? And I wanted to tell you How I'm sorry for the ways I let you down  And I thought I could reach you But there is no way to turn the tide around Draw a map of my depression And pull back the satellite   If I feel like half a person  Can I find a little light To learn to love with total freedom Is my heart’s ambition Without need for validation And without condition I was moving in circles Just to feel like I’m alright for someone else And it’s taking a lifetime But I’m learning how to know that for myself Needed to walk away To save myself And sleep to dream of better days  I've been conjuring Protection spells To keep the ghosts away I was following a feeling I always had so much to prove Never stopped to look around me Until I had a lot to lose