I Am An Illusion

I'm just the worst kind of ass who won't atone for his crimes I know not what I do, I pay my actions no mind I never bother to ask, I just up and cross the line I should be taken to task but I'm not worth it to find I am an illusion, my self a collusion Of past and future bones, colliding just to distract Freedom from occlusion Begins with refusin' To think there ever was or could be a lack I mopped the floor with regret, I refuse to apologize Spent all my money on beer, spent all my beer on time There's not a reason to live, quit playin' tricks with your mind I'm just a fool like you, riding this bus to the end of the line I am an illusion, my self a collusion Of past and future bones, colliding just to distract Freedom from occlusion Begins with the refusin' To think there ever was or could be a lack I resist all manner of truth in exchange for moments of delight I tried to hold on to love, but I held on too tight Flailing I missed the point, begging the arms of night Not yet absolved, in Debt, naked in confession's light I am an illusion, my self a collusion Of past and future bones, colliding just to distract Freedom from occlusion Begins with refusin' To think there ever was or could be a lack