I Sit

I sat on this beat for three years Entertaining these deep fears I'm washed up, I weep tears Convoluted, I don't see clear Let's be clear, my ego was trippin Wanted to live, but I had to kill it I had to do some living I had to listen to wisdom But this is my time This what I came for, this why I'm rhyming I'm breaking cycles You could not stop me, why would you try to? I'm in revival, there's blood in these veins A beat in this heart, a beast without chains As long as it's not up to me, I'll be fine I keep saying I'm fine, but you know I'm lying Cuz you knew me, and you know me It's the new me Nah, it's really the old me Which is like the whole me Now you gotta show me How to live righteous You know, do what you told me Cuz all the time I be messing up, I be going separate ways Keep forgetting who I am while I'm chasing all these days And it plays in my mind a continual chime Saying that the past ain't dead, it's alive, right? But I've been redeemed, and I still believe This Jesus thing is not make-believe It's instinctively what I seek in these Deceitful days with frequent pain It's easy to think that it's all about us It's all about trust, but who do you trust? And who do you love when push comes to shove? Stuck in the mud or mucking the flood It's under the blood, it's covered with love It's not even sus, which is kind of a plus Who could possibly want more? You know, I'm honestly not sure You got a problem with me, it's yours I got a policy, ignore Look to the sky, feet in the dirt Light's gonna shine, that's how it works You illuminate and rejuvenate Knew the shame but refused to hate I speak peace over you today In Jesus' name, go do the same I'm super late, but God is always on time Messiah gave us a sign We know that everything is all right But we gotta pray, we gotta work We gotta love, we gotta serve We gotta receive, we ain't gotta earn We gotta sing, take 'em to church