I Don't Talk About It, i never talk about it (feat. SYEKO)

Feel like I'm worlds away from peace of mind But, I'm numb to all the pain because that's the same shit that I keep inside The only way to know I'm hurt is to read between the lines Because, when you looking on the surface, I just keep on smiling But, Quill ain't got a fifty ball, so I'm just making ends meet I been broke as f*ck, I can't recall the taste of rare meat Wonder what my life would be like if I ain't befriend Meech Finally quick the drink, I ain't stop shaking in like ten weeks But, they like, "Bro, what's in your head, are you just bugging out?" Okay, so wishing I was dead means I'm just bugging out? I had goals and aspirations, but it's f*ck them now All my motives and my patience really running out Hennessy and thirties, know it's dirty but it keep me sane They say, "Give it time," but I keep hurting as the seasons change Tell me put my best foot forward, but I'm completely drained Wreckage of my past, it got me spinning on this crazy train Sick of cheap thrills, sick of crying over stupid shit I'm the one who took the perk, so why can't I stop using it? Making my own family wish they gave up on me years ago Going through a lot, but the worst part is I got years to go They all bump my shit, but feel like they don't really hear me though They don't hear the pain up in my voice that I let kill me slow God, I've had enough, like what's the reason you ain't heal me for? Always lived a life of sin, but now it ain't appealing though God, I need a chance to show you I can make this right for me Feels like you've been spite me, and honestly, it's righteously But, I just need a blessing, I ain't know how bad my life could be But, now I learned my lesson, and depression ain't the vice for me I just can't understand why I still hurt the ones I love Keep saying sorry when I hardly even mean it Like, motherfucker, you a monster, you ain't just a thug They raised you right, and shit, you still became a demon Lost myself, can't get me back Lost myself, can't get me back Lost myself, can't get me back No more, no more And, I'm stuck with all these feelings I'm crashing, then I'm burning But, you can't tell on the surface No, you can't tell that I'm hurting From the acne on my face, to the scratches and the body fat Every single thing up in that mirror makes me want to yack All that egotistical shit that I spit is fucking cap I've heard of self love, but what's it like to be in touch with that? I don't even know myself, I change personas by the hour Putting on a different mask for every person I encounter People pleasing, Sensitine, so I can't even fight the power Be who you want me to be, that's even in my brightest hour And, that ain't very bright To be alone up in my head, yeah, that's a scary sight Said I'm a tweaker, I get high, but, don't know how I'm still alive Because, I'm a hopeless human garbage can compared to Bryce Like of all people, why'd I lose my only friend that care about all people It's crazy, how it stole my brothers to the wrong needle And, I know I can't bring them back by making songs either That's probably the part that hurt the most if you would ask me Scratch that, the worst part is I move the same as them Acting stupid, popping pills with my remaining friends And, we a dying breed, swear there ain't no saving them God gave me time to straighten out, but I ain't take the chance This where I'd rather be stuck In a bottomless pit, where I'm just shit out of luck Friends and family want me dead, but I ain't giving a f*ck Because, I've been dead a couple years And, in my head, the shit I'm hearing go like Lost myself, can't get me back Lost myself, can't get me back Lost myself, can't get me back No more, no more And, I'm stuck with all these feelings I'm crashing, then I'm burning But, you can't tell on the surface No, you can't tell that I'm hurting