right place wrong

I've got bruises on my knees, no it's not from what you're thinking I've just fallen to the ground but the ground just keeps on sinking I'm exhausted and I'm lost, double-crossed by my own head I'm not choosing to keep losing, i'm working harder but I'm bled dry So why do i try I take 150 when i wake up and when i go to sleep knowing It wont solve the problem but i guess it keeps me going But I miss the bliss, that Judas kiss of the mania But you know that the low is where to go That's how they train you to cry So why do i try I'm not saying it doesn't work but i don't know combination of meditation meds and me I'm not saying it doesn't work but i don't have the concentration For the person i'm trying to be Everything is in the right place wrong So i only write sad songs The sky looks like snow, but no, it's only raining Stare at my reflection so long i see the brushstrokes i was painting And i don't want to hate me but lately i've been harder to desire Showers no longer sting, thing is that pains inside you like a fire So why do i try I'm not saying it doesn't work but i don't know combination Of meditation meds and me I'm not saying it doesn't work but i don't have the concentration For the person i'm trying to be Everything is in the right place wrong So i only write sad songs And everything is in the right place wrong So i only write sad songs