Intro (Regrets).

I got so sick and tired of crying And I hated myself Inside I felt like I was dying Couldn't express the way that I felt Pain's growing I've been trying to fight it All this pain on my shelf I've been trying to change the way I am Guessing this is the way that I'm built I got so sick and tired of crying And I hated myself Inside I felt like I was dying Couldn't express the way that I felt Pain's growing I've been trying to fight it All this pain on my shelf I've been trying to change the way I am Guessing this is the way that I'm built (yeah) woke up this morning still feeling depressed Looking at my tank feeling like there's nothing left I don't want no calls I don't want no texts Don't wanna talk to nobody They wont understand I hate this about myself I really need to change But if won't I am saying sorry in advance Its a behavior that's making it hard to make some friends I've spent many years of pushing everyone away But if you need someone to talk I am here You can tell all your fears My whole life I have gone through pain And if you feel like ain't nobody wants you near cause they think you're weird That is cool I can be your friend And if you feel like you have got so many fears and you're drowning in yours That's okay I can hold your hand Thinking bout the passion that I had before Sometimes I feel like its lost I am hoping this is just a phase I'm 18 but I got so many regrets I feel the weakness in this thing that's beating in my chest I need to find my place of peace I need to find some rest I'm trying to find a way out and I'm trying my best Clearly its not enough I need God's touch I might be going through a lot but I know that I'm blessed I'm picking up my bags and I am going on a quest I'm trying to find happiness cause I know I ain't found it yet I'm sorry to everyone it didn't work out with Too afraid to reach out I guess I was a coward Been trying to give you little pieces of myself That's all I can do and clearly that's not enough But I cant change in one day It'll take time The only time I drop my guard is when I write rhymes I've been spending a lot of time trying to outshine All my demons All my pain I guess its about time