SINNER

Dear Father God, I apologize for everything that I say and do I apologize for questioning you and I apologize for not understanding But please, oh God, understand that I am a man and I just want to understand everything that you give me Understand that this is not just for the song, but it is for me May you protect me and be my king in my life Amen So what the f*ck is salvation Feel like heaven's really just a myth that I was told so I would get my act together Hopefully I never sever my connection to the holy pleasures Cause I understand the shit I ask is wrong Please don't cast me out or see me as some type of traitor I'm just tryna make a way for both of us to get along I don't wanna think of Father God as another fucking deadbeat because I'm way too scared to make it home Like why my demons roam around Why you make me like this Questioning is my nature and you knew that I would write this I can't follow your halo cause the light is way too blinding You know I need to see to believe that you really righteous Why you create all of us if you knew what we would do Why you make me just to burn me? I feel like that's evil I don't mean the disrespect, I'm really doing what I can I understand you God and I'm an insect of a man But can you please state your plan So I know just what to fight for Help me build a new soul One with a light glow Cause right now I'm just drowning and I'm feeling like I might go crazy If I'm your son, give me a sign that my dad's here daily Cause right now I ain't got a pops I would probably pop my pops Why this anger make me roll around like it'll never stop I'll never understand why the f*ck you made my pops For the shit he did to my mother F*ck him till he drops So why you make me a burden Really what's my purpose Pastors really preaching but ain't following they sermons That just makes me nervous Cause if following prophets leads to light why the darkness in them shining so bright Tell me what's the way Cause I feel like I'm losing myself every day And I understand that I'm not okay but Tell me So I'm supposed to trust this old book Written by some old folks Words changed by old crooks Words lost in old strokes This ain't putting faith in you, this is putting faith in man Sinners who would change your words for money like the hay I can How am I supposed to know what's real if you won't speak up Why you create science if you knew what it would teach us Why are those in churches who are supposed to share your word the first one judging like my life is so perverse Please tell me what's your word Can you tell me what the f*ck is salvation Is my life worth saving Sorry if I angered you whenever I stopped praying I'm hoping that you understand when all these feelings weigh in The weight of all this waiting is what brought me all this hatred Like why is all the love I get conditional Why are my dreams fictional Why you make my homie Braxton pain way too critical I know I shouldn't ask you all these questions We don't talk too much and I might just do what I'm guessing Like why does everything just come back to you If I'm your son, that makes me the devil's brother too Like why you create big bro if you knew you'd rebel Why you have Michael reap his brother's wings all by himself I just don't understand all the things you made happen I just want a father who would explain some of his actions Eric's dad told me this ain't for me to know I shall follow in your halo Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation Show me salvation