Meaningless Measures

Scattered amongst the wreckage Memories and moments are left here in tatters It only makes it sadder To think that at one time I thought that it mattered at all It's okay, I'll bend but won't break Until one day I don't wake up I'm lost in the lesson again Surrounded by shards of my confidence And it feels like the walls are closing in The silence is salient I've lost track of the days Lost track of the ways that I fucked up everything I'm not sure that I've learned anything I'm afraid I'm hopelessly lost in these measures without meaning I'm crying out desperately why can't you hear me? I've lost my sense of feeling Please double check that my heart is still beating Today I'm okay, I'll bend but won't break Until one day I don't wake up I'm lost in the lesson again Surrounded by shards of my confidence And it feels like the walls are closing in The silence is salient I've lost track of the days Lost track of the ways that I fucked up everything I'm not sure that I've learned anything I'm afraid Please tell me it's not too late I hope one day I can change There's something wrong, I know there is Because my head is fucked up again I've always had these thoughts, I was just not sure what they meant And yet I can't seem to get them out of my head I hope there's an answer I haven't found yet I'm running out of strength They are calling for rain Baltimore, you get lonelier everyday I'm anxious and I'm afraid that it may never change I just feel further and further away I am barely awake Surely I have tried to self medicate I know that the cost will be a new kind of pain I just wish I knew another way