Love The Pain (Extended Version)

Like you want I wait for you to save me You just stand there smiling while I'm breaking Why do you only love the pain Give you every part of me worth taking You come back just so you can break me Why do you only love the pain Yeah I've been working I've been feeling like nothing's certain Cut the lights and then draw the curtains No one sees when I'm really hurting Picture perfect What they think I am Dreams are in the air But they never land Hard to let it go Hard to give a hand More I let you in More I break again All of this time I feel so empty Look at a my gas tank, been on empty Running from pain and how it tempts me Looking for God and hope he bless me Just gotta keep it real Pray one day he let me heal Heart of gold in a box of steel Keep it going, only thing I feel, yeah Just look up Only place you gotta go Don't give up I can't count how many times I felt like I just ain't enough Only thing you gotta be Is someone that you love Only thing you gotta see Is see how far you've come I see it more when I drop this pen Write it down when it hurts again In my heart is a lion's den All this pain that I try to mend All this time nights start to blend Hurts me more when I let you in But I love this feeling that you give Like you want I wait for you to save me You just stand there smiling while I'm breaking Why do you only love the pain Give you every part of me worth taking You come back just so you can break me Why do you only love the pain Yeah, yeah, yeah Since I was young I felt different Didn't know why, something was missing Found it in music Found it and used it Started writing now I'm truly living All started off one decision When I chose to pick up the pen Always knew I was destined for fame But man I didn't know when Now I'm all in and I'm feeling the pain At all angles, like a protractor But I fucking love it It keeps me going I'm the one and only I'm the benefactor So aimed at me? Pull the trigger Better shoot for the head Cause I love the pain, I love the rush Not giving up, not giving in, till the end