Early Grave

I Feel so so down again So low I call the ground a friend Bury me where I lay I dig myself an early grave Sitting in silence but it's still seeming too noisy Thinking I'm a hindrance annoying like jingling jewelery Head overcrowded by overthought thoughts it's torture Internally War torn caught in a bad place I'm cornered Walking through the darkness, nothing but a flashlight Carry on regardless that is what my life's like I'm a picture perfect painting of depression Fingers hurting from inflicting pain when I am stressing Giz a second I stare death in the face and listen to every single bargain It's hard to restrain my body from a constant want of self-harming It's hard to stay level headed So much stress I've got a headache Anger sadness jealousy Maybe I need therapy I'm a broken mess so close to being hopeless yes A frozen chess piece just waiting to be taken I'm failing at waking up They say I'm great and just a blast to be around Meanwhile I beg they blast a round through my chest so I can rest on the ground I Feel so so down again So low I call the ground a friend Bury me where I lay I dig myself an early grave I don't wanna go through with life I'm thinking of suicide The blue in my human eyes could finally fade Dying to change, emotions going all over the place Slowly but surely I think I'm going insane Suffocating in my room, with the moon looming over Claustrophobic in a open space and what's worse I'm sober Trying to clear my noggin cause its becoming a problem It's like every good memory suddenly Is forgotten Feeling faint eyes heavy yeah I'm steadily Falling Phones on silent but the heavens be calling I've never been balling unless you count balling my eyes out Playtimes over and the kid is in time out That flashlights battery is starting to go Consumed by the darkness I'm not making it home A ticking Time bomb and I'm ready to blow I really love you all I hope thats something you know I Feel so so down again So low I call the ground a friend Bury me where I lay I dig myself an early grave