On My Own

So let me tell all you man about the story of my life I started as a young boy, feeling dumb, but I was bright And trust me when i say I've had some lonely dark nights But I keep my head high cos my futures looking nice I'll try and keep this short but it's so hard, I'm in my feels I found the only way that i can vent, it's so surreal So find a comfy chair and lean back, sit still I'll say my words 'nd you listen, you agree? then that's the deal I moved to this country so young, i was brickin' it Hated the colour of my skin cos it was different I've had my fair share of abuse, it's so sickening I use to question if this is the world that I'd be livin in And as brown boy, all i cared about was fittin' in Likkle Nueva and the silence, they were synonyms Well why should I share my thoughts like it's a dividend I'd rather l stay quiet cos nobody would be listenin' Fast forward to them days I was a teen You could say it was a movie so let me set the scene I had my friends I could trust living just across the street I spent no time with family and yeah that's all on me And furthermore, i was always out, I'd never sleep I used to stress both my parents out 'nd i couldn't even see I'd lie and make excuses as to why I had to leave But it's not like I was skipping class and getting Cs Now remember when I told you, all my friends stayed close One did me dirty in the past, now my hearts so cold Yeah it's the smallest price to pay to find my musical soul Well now I'm out here writing lyrics so i'm in my zone And for a long time ahh, I was deeping it too How could a brother snake me? Just put yourself in my shoes I lost faith in my God, I had nothing to lose And so I started writing music all alone in my room But it turns out, I've got an ear for the game It's C Nueva on the track so you'll remember the name I can't lie to you all, I might be craving the fame But I gotta keep it real 'nd get my ego in shape See i can do all the melodies, i've shown that (shown that) Just listen to my other songs and go back (go back) Yeah I wanna see where my talent can go Im tryna keep my mouth shut while they're chatting the most ah And even though I got people streaming Do they believe I can really make it through Cos I ain't stopping 'till my heart stops beating You're always saying you've been there but where's your proof? I'm tired of feeling like i'm on my own Are you there for me when it's going all wrong? And every time I release, yeah you heard what i said It's like i'm fighting on my own, I know my music ain't dead I've got the faith and all the heart to keep on going ahead Nah, I can't do this all alone, I need support from your end But if I told you I was struggling, then would you believe me I'm tryna sea all my problems 'fore I'm knees deep I've got fake friends calling my phone Just waiting 'til that day comes when i can give em a loan So can I count on you now? lemme add to the list Of all the people imma bless, follow that with a gift I'm hearing voices in my head, bro you're failing at this If you ain't giving me respect then i'll be making a fist Now lemme finish what I started, that's the way that it is I'll give it 12 months now before i'm raking it in They say that money is so evil, I'll be facing my sins I'm saying money is the answer, who'm I tryna convince