Trauma

This is how you end up When you from the bottom All alone Dead broke Heartbroken 1999 I stepped into the world yeah yeah Right into the fire out the womb I was burned yeah yeah My father left me I was young Still to this day I feel pain I still feel unloved I still feel unloved Thought it’d heal with more drugs but it ain’t it just grew Still scared don’t know why but I wish I knew I wish I knew Why my granny die why’d you take her from me Still mad at God either way he gon’ judge me He gon’ judge me And I won’t ever care Smoke in the air I’m still scared I chose myself I almost died a few times Gun in my face barrel right between my eyes Ever since that day I still hear the shots in my mind I saw a murder two weeks later yeah you could say I’m traumatized I’m traumatized yeah Right after that they tried to give me 25 My momma cried yeah Tears still fall And I still tell her one day destiny will call I don’t need no one to answer nobodies gon’ pick me up I’m so tired of empty prayers I just pray you lift me up now Nah I don’t know what’s goin on all I know is keep going It’s like I’m drowning my pain’s a deep ocean They kicked me out of school ain’t gon’ lie I ain’t forgot In the end nobody cares yeah that’s what it taught me Lost everybody but I still got me And I won’t ever care Smoke in the air I’m still scared I chose myself I almost died a few times Gun in my face barrel right between my eyes Ever since that day I still hear the shots in my mind I saw a murder two weeks later yeah you could say I’m traumatized I’m traumatized yeah You could say I’m traumatized I’m traumatized yeah