Running from Myself

I've been running from myself Smile to my family and shake my friends' hands, they all think I'm doing well Sleep until 'bout three, reminiscing in the dark, mama worried for my health Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Lord, I need your help Yeah, yeah Ou-hoo-mhm Need to make some changes Wake up every morning, my emotion different ranges Sick of trying to heal a broken heart with different strangers Learning how to love but they don't speak the same language, it's dangerous My heart really broke, it need some maintenance I've been really hurt, but you can hear it in this cadence Really been deppressed, but my family think I'm lazy Tryna think outside the box, but people think I'm crazy I love toxic girls, why do I give them my whole world? Ain't worth diamond and no pearls Wrapping my head in a swirl I'm so sick of all the hurt Sick of crying in my shirt I've been tryna go to church, so I can finally end this curse Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, uh Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, uh Oh-ou, ou-ou, ou-ou-ou-ou Yeah, yeah-uh, yeah, yeah-uh, yeah, yeah-uh Don't know if you gon' ride for me It's alright, it's on God's timing Put my holy shades on, devil tryna blind me Tried to put some snakes in the grass, but they can't hide from me Used to have a girl, she broke my heart cause she ain't ride for me Gave her my whole heart and she tore everything inside of me Give you all my love, don't get it back, that's just how I be Feel like it's the karma for what I did, Lord, I'm sorry