Infinite Pleasure Without Pain

I wanna be alive (be alive) Calling out sick on a broken phone Election coming up - I gotta register to vote Scrub the floor and pour the shots I cried last night when I got home It's been two years since I've seen my mom Big wooden house and a bright green lawn Dad's a star never saw him gleam Sorry that I'm never gonna spread your genes She sucks my dick and ignores my texts I slap her real hard and I grab her chest Do you wanna see me when I'm not doing well Do you even like me when I'm not undressed Always searching for peace of mind Maybe at the bridge I can leave it all behind I don't really know if God has a plan For everybody's life including mine Penetration, insufflation Existential masturbation Cold water, high speeds Break my backbone, skull, and knees Controlling everything - Arduino Am I worth anything - please let me know Shove my garbage - into the corner Am I 21 yet or older