ROPE/KNOT/GONE

When I look behind me It wasn't worth all the pain I don't want to get better anymore I just want you to suffer the same So I surrender to the future I surrender to my fate Insignificant, nothing matters No one cares My heart keeps on beating but my eyes are blank And the voices keep repeating You should be dead by now You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead I don't want to be here I'm not really here anyway I don't want to listen To what they will say Does hell really exist ? Can you tell me what heaven is like ? Do you think that I can make it ? When will I know ? If I die tonight Do I get a second chance Do I get a fresh restart A new timeline to go through You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead Rope, knot, gone Rope, knot, gone Won't you fucking stop ticking Rope, knot, gone The child in me died A long time ago There's nothing I could do Now I'm dragging its corpse around All those suicidal memories I can't set aside, I can't set aside I have prayed for The days to stop coming Please don't make me Promise anything All those suicidal memories I can't set aside, I can't set aside What if I die tonight What am I What have I got What have I done You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead, you should be dead You should be dead Rope, knot, gone Rope, knot, gone Won't you fucking stop ticking Rope, knot, gone