Not Enough

Why don't I feel like enough inside? Am I losing my goddamn mind? Is this part of the devil's whole ride? I'm so scared he won't let me go tonight Too many nights I've stared up at the ceiling All the lights lifting me, rumors just spinning No kidding, no winning, blank face, no grinning I guess this is the end, pick me up again I'm nothing but dead weight, still my legs shake And it feels like I'm always having Headaches Till the ground breaks, I'ma stay afloat Till I know where's the safe place I could go Lost in time, thinking all about how you and I Sadly let go, but ended up growing so close That none of us go ghost This lonely road is a scary one Try not to roam and head it off But none of us were ever dumb Cause we tried a lot and gave her love Now I don't feel like enough for anyone I've given up, I'm done Trying to suffice my life with things that I want Put down the gun Making a living off pain and depression Feels like I'm always just stuck in the middle Losing all sense in my vision Keep it inside cause I don't wanna bitch it Why don't I feel like enough inside? Am I losing my goddamn mind? Is this part of the devil's whole ride? I'm so scared he won't let me go tonight