Therapy Session That Never Ends

For the last few months, I've been feeling so fucking stuck Waiting for everything to lift up, gotta stay rough and tough with the buds But I feel like crying so much, I completely hold this grudge Why, if it beats me down, I won't budge like how I used to Then I outgrew it, if I go back in time and redo shit The whole timeline will be kicking my shin cause I affected it all I know that wouldn't get by, don't like my reflection No more, seem no pretty, no butterfly at all I can't call out for help, I'm pissed off Only thing I can write tonight on my deathbed Trapped in my head, rather be dead than to explain The disdain I have for myself, my mental is off the rails I'm so gentle when often fails, can't go one day without author fails Lost my mother, father's not doing well without her Neither am I, neither is bro, I don't even know where should I go To get away from this dark place, every time I'm here Got a lot of space to just spend, I need rest, that is my only request Doc, do you have advice for me? That would work really nicely Do I got a list of possibilities? Usually The whole world is at all my feet, hard to breathe Having these dreams that no one believes in me But it comes to be that I'm apparently super crazy Going insane out of my brain, hope one day I have no more pain That shit will drain, my emotions taking over my soul And the coffin is where it goes, try to get it back but I'm feeling low Time to go search and try to get a grip before I walk through the cold I've done some things that I wish I didn't Don't need to explain, I've already lived it Just trying to make a vision for all the kids that are stuck in the piss That things take more than a minute to heal I know it's hard to hear, so please don't go jumping off that pier Almost did the same, now I'm pissed off I had so much exhaust, and I lost my self and Almost died without no cost Look, Cash, I think you're bottling up a lot, so I'm going to give you this right now I think you should go home, just chill, relax, and Just release it all, and then have it So then next time you come back, you can say whatever you want You can say, you can say however you need to, just To be able to do it, okay, that's the only thing I suggest Wait, what the f*ck do you mean I'm bottling up I literally just talked about how I almost fucking killed myself What the f*ck do you mean Well, I think you're just bottling up a lot, and you need to release it So, uh, do what I said, please