I'll Be Alright (Heads)

You got me begging on my knees looking for a plea Take a look at the crowd and all i see is me alone And I'm thinking of all the lies of all the guys You told me not to worry about take a look and analyze Your face in the crowd of this beautiful sea How could i not see that your back is turning on me I'm depressed hearts a mess gotta get it off my chest Apparently half of Ogden been getting it off your chest Telling me you love me just to get in my pants Falling for it hell, I don't even stand a chance Taking every will i have not to go and dial in your number I'm alone in my room but cant help but to wonder What you out doing who you with making my heart sadder On my Snapchat story trying to conduct myself in such a manner I listen to the lie of i love you and nobody else But how can anyone love me when i don't love myself I've been having like mad anxiety attacks lately I will just wake up in the morning shaking and shit But I'll be alright Its getting to the point where i cant remember what the f*ck is real The voices in my head or reality But tomorrows a new day so imma make it through today Because one of these days I'm gonna feel like I'm okay About myself and the direction i seem to be moving in Stay laughing through the pain that I've been fucking coping in Dreams of having enough money just to make it by And getting my degree first-generation alumni But the thoughts keep creeping creeping in about you Not forgetting you is the hardest thing I've had to go through It may be dark in this hole now but I've made it out before I'm just mentally drained and my body is all sore However imma keep putting on this face of good times But it ain't the truth I'm an actor and it seems oftentimes I think i could get an oscar for this performance Some performance of not grieving and emotions go dormant Maybe i need a break or maybe i need some sleep Just wanna take a look if my future is good yeah just a peep I'm losing my mind in the fucking room man I'm going crazy there is only four walls But I'll be alright Imma be alright I'm just gonna keep telling myself that till it's true man Till it's true