Running From Myself!

It just hasnt been my week Spend my energy between my scalp and my cheek Power misdirected feelings so weak My intentions my scape keeping my delusions bleak Became so aware of my surroundings So aware so aware of the clutter im mounding The clutter in my brain stacked to the roof Stacked so high but in theyre eyes ill always be a goof The goof the goof the class clown the comedian Humor stomping the truth far below my median And if this be my truth then show me the proof Show me before i run away from my youth Cuz im wasting away in this cell behind this door Staring at these notifications till i cant fathom more Scrolling at the unopened texts covering my phone Its nights like these where i feel the most alone Where are you running When are you coming Why are you running Are you running to me The closing walls are standing still but gaining ground Im finally sober but its keeping me so tightly wound Cluttered room clutter brain cluttered actions Losing sight of my last track of traction Im not on a time crunch but my phones boutta die Not on writers block but my hands slipping off time And if i lose my grip im not sure if i will make it out alive Writing this song the only thing distracting from my mind Cuz ive loved and ive loved till my heart got broke And ive thought and thought and fell in the coke And ive battled and battled till my mind got lost And now im sitting back wondering at what cost Was it worth the pride cut praying on your knees Was it worth the trouble digging through deceitful debris Was it worth my time attempting to unlock these keys Cuz i feel the most alone on nights like these Where are you running When are you coming Why are you running Are you running to me