Smoking Alone

Imagine 9th grade me buzzcuts and good report cards Almost got my license ecstatic to finally drive a car Made some friends man I thought they'd stick around Good times I liked the company in which I surround One of them mentioned weed and asked if I could find I said yeah but I was hardcore frontin' in my mind They said we ain't never smoked before have you I said hell yeah I'm always chief in on that gorilla glue Lying to impress people I luckily grew out of that They didn't know better and looked right past So we congregated while I got my hands on some tree We met at one house and waited till a quarter till three We snuck out the window and walked to a hayfield Hid in the dirt and whipped out what we concealed Put on pink floyd and pulled out a campfire lighter Convinced i wanted this put butane to the igniter Puffed puffed passed till I couldn't seem to stand Made it back before his mom woke up it was planned A couple weeks of smoking later and one had to squeal The mom didn't turn me in and I thought that was a deal The real deal happened with the devil weeks ago All i could think about was tree man it was all I know But now my friends are gone and I am left unknown Unknown to the public so now I'm smoking alone I used to smoke socially to calm the anxiety Now I can't remember how to live in sobriety For me it seems to be the cheapest form of psychiatry The Mormons stay away cuz weed made my notoriety For me it seems to be the cheapest form of psychiatry I'm telling you to stay away it made my notoriety My music is like my diary so stay and listen quietly Just wanna get high to give my life some variety I love the lights but lately I seem to shine better alone No breaks taken when I'm unknown is when I'm in the zone I got friends but I don't feel I can talk to them Cuz my best convos happen when I'm in my REM Aspirations of becoming the best and being loved nationally Your dreams consume you and you start think irrationally But if that's what it takes then that's what ill do It's been a lonely winter if only you knew I'm sorry to the homies wish that you could see my point of view It's been a lonely winter man if only you knew Cuz nobody will love me like I love myself And vise versa I live in the word hate itself Cause it's a weird complex in the love and hate mental war Self-doubt then f*ck it run it back once more Cause It's a weird complex in the love and hate mental war Wanna reach the sky with my feet on the floor What you are witnessing is the death of me and everything I know Cause Caderade has reached out and consumed my soul But now Cade is gone and I'm left unknown Unknown to myself so now I'm smoking alone I used to smoke socially to calm the anxiety Now I can't remember how to live in sobriety For me it seems to be the cheapest form of psychiatry The Mormons stay away cuz weed made my notoriety For me it seems to be the cheapest form of psychiatry I'm telling you to stay away weed made my notoriety My music is like my diary so stay and listen quietly Just wanna get high to give my life some variety Now come get high with me Get high with me baby Now come get high with me high with me Why do I keep trying to make it like a swing Man f*ck it Come get high with me Come ride with me In the sky with me baby ay ay Alright that's it